Various Thoughts

I have a lot of thoughts swirling about my head right now, so out with them. Here. Now. I'm skipping rowing for the night for this. It had best be good.

1. I feel very lucky right now. I feel like I have a really blessed life, especially home life. You see, even though they don't get me sometimes, I gripe about them, I yell at them, my parents have always been there for me, mentally and physically. They're both retired now and even before that, my Mom worked from home and my Dad was only flying on weekends. They have always been there to drag me from one friend's house to another or from a lacrosse game to a riding lesson and what not. I'm also pretty close to my Mom. She is the one that always has the patience to deal with me, except when I'm at my absolute most obnoxious. Which can be often, but still. My Dad on the other hand, is a bit stricter. Anyway, not only are my parents always home, but I'm the only child still living at home and that they have to financially support. My other half-siblings are all grown up and living on their own. That means that I get opportunities that some of my friends don't have because they just can't afford it. Sometimes, I feel really guilty about that, but also incredibly blessed. Now, mentally. In about third through fifth or sixth grade, I was best friends with a girl who probably wasn't good for me. She was always so superior and always making me feel inferior. She also kind of made me think that in order to grow up, I had to separate myself from my parents. Then, I visited my best friend in Massachusetts and saw how close to her Mom she was. I realized that I didn't have to do this all on my own, and now my Mom and I are much closer, I think.

2. I'm really worried. About one of my good friends, who just hasn't been the same lately. I can't say all of it here, so I'll just leave it at that.

3. My riding. Yes, I am a horse freak. I just usually don't show it. Lately though, I've been thinking a lot about it. I went through a whole month there where I just missed my pony terribly. I haven't been on horseback in ages. The thing is, that part of the reason for that is that I don't have a horse that I really want to ride. So, I've started browsing some websites. I found a horse in my area that I was really interested in. The problem is that since I haven't been making time to ride, my parents think that I just don't have the time to ride. They won't take me seriously. I can practically see their minds saying that they don't want to invest that sort of money if I'm never going to get over to the barn. But I think that if I had a horse that I wanted to ride, I would be finding much more time to do it.

4. My teachers. High school is grating on me. Especially my high school. Don't get me wrong, I'm having a great time. I've met some positively amazing and wonderful people and made some awesome friends, but some of my classes are downright annoying. Case A: FRENCH CLASS. I am currently learning things that I learned in sixth grade, because the administration wouldn't put my friends and I in French III where we belong. To put it nicely, screw the French program. It's annoying the crap out of me. Case B: ALGEBRA II. This is pure teacher. My teacher just grates on my nerves. Every single day. I have always disliked Math, but last year I had a teacher that just clicked with me and I started to almost enjoy it. This year, I've gone straight back to hating it. Case C: RELIGION. I saved the worse for last. My religion teacher is terrible. He is a preacher, not a teacher and he seriously needs to stick to his trade. He has now lost one of my quizzes and one of my homeworks and he blames it on the number of classes he has. He is a freaking PART-TIME TEACHER. Even my parents are angry at him now and my Dad called him an old fart. Made my day. Also, I'm not Catholic, and I go to a Catholic school. This isn't much of an issue because my religion is very similar, but some of the things that my Religion teacher says, I find really offensive. He tends to insult other religions and basically say that we are all going to Hell and I find that really offensive. Catholics are supposed to accept other religions, but he apparently does not.

There are a few other things swirling too, but I don't really feel like I can post them here. They're not hurtful or anything, just kind of private. I wish I could, because this is kind of my dump, but I just can't bring myself to. I guess I'll just go rant to some of my friends. *shrug*

Over and Out.